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1 00:00:04,480 --> 00:00:08,920 Everything is moving back and forth and breathing. 2 00:00:13,600 --> 00:00:16,920 Hi, flashy friends, I'm Nellie. -And I'm Bastiaan. 3 00:00:17,040 --> 00:00:18,880 Welcome to... -Our Drugslab. 4 00:00:19,000 --> 00:00:24,000 Twice a month we test various drugs to see how it affects our body. 5 00:00:24,120 --> 00:00:28,480 If you're curious about a drug or if you know a good location... 6 00:00:28,600 --> 00:00:30,760 let us know in the comments. 7 00:00:30,880 --> 00:00:36,120 Tonberry King, Daniela Bravo... -KnockOut Para un Final... 8 00:00:36,240 --> 00:00:43,240 and glenn salvesen want me to try... -San Pedro. 9 00:00:43,360 --> 00:00:48,120 We're not going to do it here. It's too intense to do it here. 10 00:00:48,240 --> 00:00:52,280 We want to go about it in a... -Spiritual manner. 11 00:00:52,400 --> 00:00:56,720 I'm going try San Pedro in ceremonial way. 12 00:00:56,840 --> 00:01:01,280 I find it extremely exciting. -But you are ready for it, right? 13 00:01:01,400 --> 00:01:06,640 Well, Nell, put your trip dress on. -And let's go. 14 00:01:09,840 --> 00:01:14,920 We made it. We're sitting in a yurt. It's beautiful. 15 00:01:15,040 --> 00:01:18,360 I think you'll experience an amazing trip here. 16 00:01:18,480 --> 00:01:23,000 San Pedro is a cactus. We're have dried San Pedro. 17 00:01:23,120 --> 00:01:28,400 It's a powder and it smells... 18 00:01:29,520 --> 00:01:34,480 a bit like tea, but not strongly. 19 00:01:34,600 --> 00:01:37,480 San Pedro can be found in the Andes mountains. 20 00:01:37,600 --> 00:01:42,560 It's been used for over 3000 years and it's still used in ceremonies. 21 00:01:42,680 --> 00:01:47,200 Using San Pedro can give you visions and insights. 22 00:01:47,320 --> 00:01:52,600 Some people even get hallucinations. It's quite a spiritual substance. 23 00:01:52,720 --> 00:01:57,480 There's a ceremony leader who is going to guide my trip. 24 00:01:57,600 --> 00:02:01,840 It can lead to an inner journey. I'm quite nervous. 25 00:02:01,960 --> 00:02:08,960 I'm glad we're in a nice environment and that the trip can be guided. 26 00:02:09,080 --> 00:02:11,960 The ceremony leader has determined a dose of 25 grams. 27 00:02:12,080 --> 00:02:18,280 It depends on the potency of the cactus, so you don't know exactly how intense it'll be. 28 00:02:18,400 --> 00:02:23,880 25 grams could be very intense for me, but not intense for someone else... 29 00:02:24,000 --> 00:02:27,520 if their cactus is less potent. -We have a powder... 30 00:02:27,640 --> 00:02:31,600 so you can mix it with apple juice, because it's disgusting. 31 00:02:31,720 --> 00:02:34,120 You have to drink a thick sludge. 32 00:02:34,240 --> 00:02:38,040 You have to push through, because we want to see the effects. 33 00:02:38,160 --> 00:02:44,520 I've brought along some ginger, because it can make you nauseous. 34 00:02:44,640 --> 00:02:49,480 Before I drink the San Pedro, I will be 'smudged' by the ceremony leader. 35 00:02:49,600 --> 00:02:52,160 And that is? -A ritual cleansing. 36 00:03:31,640 --> 00:03:36,120 You have to drink it slowly. -Okay, thank you. 37 00:03:46,880 --> 00:03:50,480 It's like drinking bitter earth. 38 00:03:50,600 --> 00:03:57,200 You have to drink San Pedro slowly, otherwise the effect can be too intense. 39 00:03:57,320 --> 00:04:02,640 It can also make you nauseous, so take your time. We're not in a hurry. 40 00:04:02,760 --> 00:04:07,320 I should be glad to consume something, because you're not allowed to eat... 41 00:04:07,440 --> 00:04:10,440 six hours beforehand, or at least that's recommended. 42 00:04:10,560 --> 00:04:14,360 That way it's absorbed better and there's less chance of puking. 43 00:04:14,480 --> 00:04:21,080 I had a nicer breakfast in mind. -One more sip and then you're done. 44 00:04:21,200 --> 00:04:25,240 Can you still handle it? -I'm already nauseous. 45 00:04:34,040 --> 00:04:39,600 Well done. -I'm a bit out of sorts now. 46 00:04:39,720 --> 00:04:44,440 Was it disgusting? -It was really very disgusting. 47 00:04:44,560 --> 00:04:49,280 An hour has gone by. How do you feel now? 48 00:04:49,400 --> 00:04:56,040 I have to laugh all the time, but I feel very nauseous. It's up to here. 49 00:04:56,160 --> 00:04:58,920 Your eyes are very dilated. -Really? 50 00:04:59,040 --> 00:05:02,880 It feels like 'happiness hormones' have been released. 51 00:05:03,000 --> 00:05:04,720 I also feel a bit hazy. 52 00:05:04,840 --> 00:05:10,480 It feels like it's stuck in my body. My body feels uncomfortable. 53 00:05:10,600 --> 00:05:16,120 I've given you a notebook and a pen. I'm going to play some music. 54 00:05:16,240 --> 00:05:21,000 Take this time to meditate and to reflect on everything. 55 00:05:21,120 --> 00:05:26,400 Everything that serves no purpose, that you don't need and want to let go. 56 00:05:28,440 --> 00:05:32,680 Let the San Pedro tell you where to unleash the energy. 57 00:05:49,480 --> 00:05:53,320 During my ceremony, I received four tasks. 58 00:05:53,440 --> 00:05:56,040 First, I had to write down what I wanted to let go. 59 00:05:56,160 --> 00:06:00,160 Then, what I wanted to promise myself, what I was grateful for... 60 00:06:00,280 --> 00:06:02,240 and finally I had to confess. 61 00:06:02,360 --> 00:06:07,560 I feel that confessions are for things for which you feel remorse... 62 00:06:07,680 --> 00:06:12,840 but what I like about myself is that I'm not a saint... 63 00:06:12,960 --> 00:06:16,080 because I have a strong urge to be like a saint. 64 00:06:16,200 --> 00:06:20,120 In your case it's not a sin then. -No, it doesn't feel like a sin. 65 00:06:20,240 --> 00:06:24,080 It feels like a liberation to do things that aren't allowed. 66 00:06:38,640 --> 00:06:45,080 I've never before seen the images that I'm seeing and experiencing now. 67 00:06:45,200 --> 00:06:47,280 This really is a wise plant. 68 00:06:52,560 --> 00:06:54,360 Wow, a wild animal. 69 00:07:02,680 --> 00:07:08,520 I'm glad you're here to guide me, golly. 70 00:07:08,640 --> 00:07:14,560 I believe you've written down a lot. -Totally. I lost myself completely. 71 00:07:15,080 --> 00:07:18,680 Everything is going back and forth and breathing. 72 00:07:18,800 --> 00:07:24,000 It feels like I have to surrender to it, literally and figuratively. 73 00:07:33,400 --> 00:07:35,960 It became a bit too much. 74 00:07:36,080 --> 00:07:40,800 That's because everything is moving... 75 00:07:40,920 --> 00:07:47,000 the colours are more intense and I'm engaged in an inner dialogue. 76 00:07:47,120 --> 00:07:53,120 It's very lovingly, but I've noticed that I'm constantly talking to myself. 77 00:07:53,240 --> 00:07:59,040 A moment ago, with the music, nausea and everything I've written down... 78 00:07:59,160 --> 00:08:02,120 everything started to jump and dance around. 79 00:08:02,240 --> 00:08:07,160 It's a pleasant vibe, but it's having a profound effect on me. 80 00:08:07,280 --> 00:08:11,000 My mind is going in every direction. 81 00:08:11,120 --> 00:08:15,160 I've written down quite a lot. -Can we talk about it? 82 00:08:15,280 --> 00:08:18,720 That's fine by me. -I want to ask you about what I saw. 83 00:08:18,840 --> 00:08:21,160 You've written down things like: 84 00:08:21,280 --> 00:08:25,880 letting go of tension, nausea, insincerity and restlessness. 85 00:08:26,000 --> 00:08:29,400 Your mum passed away a few years ago. 86 00:08:29,520 --> 00:08:34,400 Why did you write down her name? Why would you want to let her go? 87 00:08:34,520 --> 00:08:39,680 Not her personally, but all the pain associated with her. 88 00:08:39,800 --> 00:08:46,080 My mum used to be my mum, pretty, sweet and fun... 89 00:08:46,200 --> 00:08:51,520 but when someone becomes ill, a lot of negative things come with it. 90 00:08:51,640 --> 00:08:58,440 I used to associate my mum with beauty but now I associate her with pain. 91 00:08:58,560 --> 00:09:03,160 I don't want it to hurt any longer. 92 00:09:06,680 --> 00:09:11,000 When I think of my mum, I want to think of something beautiful... 93 00:09:11,120 --> 00:09:17,480 instead of just all that pain. That's what I want to let go of. 94 00:09:17,600 --> 00:09:22,680 Of course I remember her fondly, but now when I hear the word 'mum'... 95 00:09:22,800 --> 00:09:26,040 I have to cringe. I never felt that way before. 96 00:09:26,160 --> 00:09:29,840 This is the moment to let that go. -Indeed. 97 00:09:33,600 --> 00:09:36,280 You can now take place by the fire. 98 00:09:36,400 --> 00:09:42,680 You have to say out loud to the fire what you want to let go of. 99 00:09:42,800 --> 00:09:49,640 You have to brush fear and insecurities from your body and give it to the fire. 100 00:09:49,760 --> 00:09:52,560 The more emotions and force you put behind it... 101 00:09:52,680 --> 00:09:56,640 the more effect it will have in your daily life. 102 00:09:57,360 --> 00:10:04,320 In any case the urge for perfection. That's just nonsense. 103 00:10:04,440 --> 00:10:10,960 And I don't want to be part of all the insincerity. 104 00:10:11,080 --> 00:10:13,800 I want to be rid of that. 105 00:10:13,920 --> 00:10:20,320 I don't want to let my mum go, but just all the pain associated with her. 106 00:10:20,440 --> 00:10:25,280 I also wrote down that it's time for me to leave my comfort zone... 107 00:10:25,400 --> 00:10:29,040 because I have the urge to be in control all the time. 108 00:10:29,160 --> 00:10:32,640 I no longer want to waste any energy. 109 00:10:32,760 --> 00:10:35,600 I want to surrender to life. 110 00:10:35,720 --> 00:10:39,920 I no longer want other people to have anything to say about me. 111 00:10:40,040 --> 00:10:42,360 That was everything, I think. 112 00:10:45,720 --> 00:10:49,440 I want to let that all go. 113 00:11:05,480 --> 00:11:10,320 When I close my eyes, it becomes very intense. 114 00:11:10,440 --> 00:11:15,480 That's a sort of acceptance that things can be intense and unpleasant. 115 00:11:15,600 --> 00:11:17,880 That's what it is. 116 00:11:18,000 --> 00:11:21,840 I'm in a kind of magical and enchanted land. 117 00:11:21,960 --> 00:11:25,760 It's so intense, it's ridiculous. 118 00:11:25,880 --> 00:11:29,080 Are you still having fun? -Yes, it's still fun... 119 00:11:29,200 --> 00:11:33,960 but I'm glad someone is here, because this is so intense, guys. 120 00:11:34,080 --> 00:11:40,560 Everything is moving. My thoughts are all over the place. 121 00:11:40,680 --> 00:11:46,320 One moment I feel I've had enough and the next I feel I have to surrender to it. 122 00:11:46,440 --> 00:11:52,640 But by golly, this isn't child's play. It's as if I've taken... 123 00:11:52,760 --> 00:11:58,960 2C-B, truffles, mushrooms, MDMA, weed and hash all at once. 124 00:11:59,080 --> 00:12:01,880 That's quite intense. -It's so intense. 125 00:12:02,000 --> 00:12:06,480 And in the meantime, I'm getting very clear ideas... 126 00:12:06,600 --> 00:12:12,800 and things I want to talk about, but sometimes it's really intense. 127 00:12:12,920 --> 00:12:18,200 If you're going to do this, prepare well. Know what you're getting yourself into. 128 00:12:18,320 --> 00:12:20,320 Make sure you can relax the next day... 129 00:12:20,440 --> 00:12:24,200 because it's a shock to the system and very intense. 130 00:12:24,320 --> 00:12:29,040 You'll be very tired the next day. -It feels like all my senses are open. 131 00:12:29,160 --> 00:12:31,160 Everything has meaning now. 132 00:12:31,280 --> 00:12:36,960 Normally you're preoccupied with you as a person or with a cat... 133 00:12:37,080 --> 00:12:40,840 but now everything has meaning. 134 00:12:40,960 --> 00:12:45,440 Everything that I thought was important isn't important at all. 135 00:12:45,560 --> 00:12:52,080 I'm wondering what we're all doing, also in regards to myself, I think: 136 00:12:52,200 --> 00:12:56,720 What can I do to make the world a better place? 137 00:12:56,840 --> 00:13:00,600 It's so easy to waste your time on fleeting matters. 138 00:13:00,720 --> 00:13:05,800 We're only concerned with our phones instead of making fun together. 139 00:13:05,920 --> 00:13:10,520 We act like we care a lot for each other, but we only care for ourselves. 140 00:13:10,640 --> 00:13:17,000 We don't even do that, because if we actually did, we wouldn't do that. 141 00:13:17,120 --> 00:13:21,120 We would stop doing everything that we're doing now. 142 00:13:21,240 --> 00:13:24,920 Only what you think is important counts and not what others find important. 143 00:13:25,040 --> 00:13:27,520 Only what I find important. -Exactly. 144 00:13:27,640 --> 00:13:33,600 Do you feel like screaming or running? -Yes, perhaps. 145 00:13:33,720 --> 00:13:35,320 Right? -Right. 146 00:13:35,440 --> 00:13:39,800 Go ahead and scream. -I want you to scream with me. 147 00:13:48,080 --> 00:13:49,680 Was that nice? -It was. 148 00:13:49,800 --> 00:13:52,920 How do you feel now? -Shattered. 149 00:13:53,040 --> 00:13:57,720 I do feel happy and very chill... 150 00:13:57,840 --> 00:14:02,840 but I've noticed that I've never experienced anything like this before. 151 00:14:02,960 --> 00:14:06,200 You also look tired. -I'm done. 152 00:14:06,320 --> 00:14:08,760 Did you think it went well? -Certainly. 153 00:14:08,880 --> 00:14:13,720 I think that Nellie has grown a lot these last few hours. 154 00:14:13,840 --> 00:14:17,360 You're a fine human being. -Thanks. 155 00:14:17,480 --> 00:14:20,240 That's very important. That's all I have to say. 156 00:14:20,360 --> 00:14:25,080 We're going to sit here for a bit and then we'll see how you feel tomorrow. 157 00:14:25,200 --> 00:14:28,600 Guys, this was super intense. 158 00:14:28,720 --> 00:14:34,400 A lot has happened in the meantime. It's all just very intense. 159 00:14:34,520 --> 00:14:40,520 It was nice, but there's not enough time to discuss it in a 'day after' session. 160 00:14:40,640 --> 00:14:44,160 That's why I have a surprise for you. I'm going to do a special next week. 161 00:14:44,280 --> 00:14:49,640 In the comments you can ask me all about my San Pedro journey. 162 00:14:49,760 --> 00:14:53,280 You can ask questions that are personal for you or for me. 163 00:14:53,400 --> 00:14:57,680 If you have any questions about San Pedro after watching this video... 164 00:14:57,800 --> 00:15:01,160 you can ask whatever you like about San Pedro. 165 00:15:01,280 --> 00:15:06,840 I'll tell you everything that has happened with me in these last few weeks... 166 00:15:06,960 --> 00:15:09,240 because that was quite a lot. 167 00:15:09,360 --> 00:15:13,800 Lots of kisses and I'm looking forward to your questions. Until next week.